A Heavy Heart

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Mental Illness has stole from you and my heart is very heavy.

 it's easier to ignore a problem like mental illness than address it, to do so, many people feel they are admitting weakness, but do we not go see a doctor when we are sick?  is a ruptured appendix not as serious as a ruptured mind?

  At some point in life, we are faced with a choice, to either turn and face our daemons, or let them chase us and hope they don't catch up. 

 Our loyalty must lie to our own happiness, and joys in life, before anyone else's, or else we have not only failed them, we have failed our selves. Without self love, and worth, what is life, and how can we truly love another person, while we are expecting them to love us, and fill us up and make us happy? in doing so, you drain every person around you, and end up alone, wondering why.

 My dad used to say to me you can't fix people. 

 He is right. 

 We can try to help, offer resources, and advice, but ultimately People have to want to fix themselves.

 But it doesn't mean our hearts don't get heavy when they won't. 













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