Slivers and Silver Linings

Some women grow up dreaming of having children, becoming a mother, getting married. They have there weddings planned out far before they have met there future husbands. Not me. When I was younger, and a teenager, and even in my early twenties, Marriage scared me, the thought of having children wasn't a priority, and I had a very small idea of what i'd want my wedding to look like.  I have always loved animals, but small children, especially if they were misbehaved didn't really catch my fancy. I wouldn't say that I didn't like children, I just didn't feel connected or all that interested in other peoples children outside of my nieces and nephews, or family members I guess. Sounds pretty selfish right? So it's been a surprise to me to learn just how much I actually do love children. It started once I had finally hit the "baby hungry" stage of life. I'd never, ever, really wanted a baby before, and it wasn't a possibility, it ...

Mental Illness has stole from you and my heart is very heavy. it's easier to ignore a problem like mental illness than address it, to do so, many people feel they are admitting weakness, but do we not go see a doctor when we are sick?  is a ruptured appendix not as serious as a ruptured mind?  At some point in life, we are faced with a choice, to either turn and face our daemons, or let them chase us and hope they don't catch up.  Our loyalty must lie to our own happiness, and joys in life, before anyone else's, or else we have not only failed them, we have failed our selves. Without self love, and worth, what is life, and how can we truly love another person, while we are expecting them to love us, and fill us up and make us happy? in doing so, you drain every person around you, and end up alone, wondering why. My dad used to say to me you can't fix people.  He is right.  We can try to help, offer resources, and advice, but ultimately People have ...

For Next Go Round, Remember: ·          While being pregnant, I was convinced that at the six week mark I would be back at it working out. Depending on the delivery you have, and how you recover this may not happen. Be gentle on yourself, and let your body heal.  ·          I compared myself to other moms that I admired, and I felt bad for myself that I wasn't up for working out yet. I felt like I should have been going on walks and running by this time, I wasn't in a place recovery wise to do this. Walks were okay, running was painful and made my hips ache, and I can't say that this isn't still the case sometimes. Like I'm not going to be running everyday still. ·          Having a forceps assisted birth is going to take a bit longer to recover from. I pray I don’t have to do this again. ·          You ma...